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the scope of my faith grows, so does the scope of my doubts,
but what has been a comforting realization for me over the last couple
years is that it is as hard not to believe as it is to believe. Not only
that, but oddly enough, to not believe is to believe. To live in the world
with any mental coherence—to rationally carry on with your living, your
money-making, your dating, your daily activities—requires forming some
sort framework of belief or beliefs that gives them meaning and purpose.
This usually happens in such subtle and even subconscious ways that we
consider it to be unremarkable.
When
GQ magazine asked celebrity Jennifer Lopez about her third marriage, which
came about within months of her second, she said, “I’ve made commitments
to people and done things that I thought were right at the time. I just
follow my heart. You do what you need to do at the time for what you need
at the time.” Listen carefully: it sounds vague and dismissive, but it’s
actually a profession of faith, a declaration of a moral philosophy that
integrates Lopez’s belief and behavior.
Human
beings of at least childlike mental ability are incapable of separating
their beliefs from their actions, or they will experience what psychologists
call cognitive dissonance. So it’s not a question of whether you believe
in something or not. It’s what you believe, and how your beliefs resonate
with your life, the biblical story or another metanarrative, and the world
you see around you.
We
usually think of the question of belief in terms of sentimentalism and
cynicism, and set up an unhelpful dichotomy: either I will succumb to (or
embrace) abstract stirrings of the soul or I will live with a more reliable
disaffection and distrust of any moral or political authority. But this
is naive. To declare that the deity does not exist, that life is purposeless
and random, that religious wisdom is invalid, that Truth is a farce, and
that heaven is a silly dream, is to articulate a belief system about the
contours of human existence. Which is impossible without faith. The sales
pitch for atheism is that it’s sensible and level-headed, but in truth
it requires an emaciating tug on the imagination, and a diligence in the
face of life’s withering persecution of the human will to believe.
To
not believe in God is as hard for a finite, meager mortal to think and
declare as to believe in God. As Christians must wrestle with the vexing
question of how there can be a God if there is pain and suffering in the
world, so atheists must struggle with the question of how there cannot
be a God with joy and pleasure in the world. There is no logical, scientific
answer for why sex is enjoyable or chocolate tastes good—reproduction and
sustenance could be unremarkably functional in order for life to go on.
As
a Christian I would argue that the two—belief in God, belief in no God—are
not equal in degree of difficulty; the latter is more difficult, since
it must be done without the aid of inspiration in the face of natural wonder,
the resonance of the Logos or word of God, the solidarity of a throng of
believers past and present, and the stark fact that the potentially intolerable
chaos of social order is at times, even often, livable and enjoyable. Take
each of these segments by themselves, and they may not be all that convincing
(or they may). But when taken as an inspiring whole, the sum is greater
than the parts.
For
me, the most inescapable view of God is that of artist and designer. Someone
has to answer for the profound fact that the pageant of natural and social
life plays out day to day, century to century, without imploding on itself—much
less that this pageant can at times bring joy and peace. “Whoever is responsible,”
writes Philip Yancey, “is a fierce and imcomparable artist beside whom
all human achievement and creativity dwindle as child's play.”
To
view a Monet painting and believe that the form and beauty of the work
could not come from a random splattering of meaninglessly projected paint
droplets is to understand the logic of believing in intelligent design,
and the illogic of denying it. To view nature and society, more amazing
than a million Monets, is to see it as a work of both imaginative art and
practical engineering, and to then trace it back to the author. “There
[is] something personal in the world, as in a work of art,” said G.K Chesterton.
“Magic must have a meaning, and meaning must have someone to mean it."
On the other hand, it takes faith to belittle the splendor of a sunrise.
Or, as Chesterton said, "The worst moment for the atheist is when he is
really thankful and has no one to thank."
Indeed,
even though we know that God uses evolution in his management of the natural
world—and may have even used it to bring the natural world into being—this
is just a description of a master at work, like a biography of Michelangelo.
Oddly, faith and science are often seen to be at odds. But the more we
learn about science, the more adjectives we have for God. And the more
we sense that the world is not stagnant but is a work in progress—is building
toward something. As the apostle Paul says, God will bring his work “to
completion.”
Ever
since the Enlightenment responded to the history-wide plague of narrow-minded
religious institutions with a detached belief in science and rationality
(and who is the mastermind behind those?), the assumption developed and
remains dominant in our society today that it is more logical and less
sentimental to not believe in God. Could it be that the true zealots are
those who see the stars and remain defiant, and that believers are sometimes
the ones who make the most sense?
None
of this is to try to logically prove God or fully discredit atheism, either
of which is impossible. Trying to fully comprehend God is like trying to
run Windows98 on a pocket calculator—we just don’t have the cognitive and
spiritual equipment. To experience fellowship with God is a spiritual experience
that requires the soul stirrings of the Holy Spirit. Besides, the apostle
Paul says that now we see as through foggy glass; then we will see in full.
It
is only to observe and submit that since everyone already functions according
to certain beliefs which, throughout life’s experiences, must resonate
with the world we see in front of us, we would do well to consider the
biblical story, the coherent story of a world made, perverted, saved, and
eventually completed. Believing in heaven, then, is not like believing
in Santa Claus; it is rather a relevant extension and fulfillment of our
faith and our observations about the natural and social world. Since we
find ourselves alive in the middle of this existence, staring at the sea
or standing on a city street, it would be stubborn to refrain from trying
to articulate a coherent system of meaning that begins to define what we
see and give meaning to our days.
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Letter
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